This piece of writing will incorporate elements of a memoir as it is a written history frommy life. Still, it will also make room for mystical realism, and experimental prose as I investigate my ambitions, fears, and dreams – both in the day and in the night, memory – whether correct or flawed, past, or present, as well as projections and aspirations for the future. The Thesis will explore the darkness of depression, ideas of failure, and a growing relationship with the Christianfaith.